i cant take it anymore,
my life is going to somewhere down to the sewage system.

i know you care.
but i just cant bring myself to tell you whats wrong.
after all, i cant force you to keep it to yourself.

& than there's always the judgement part.

life's not perfect, i know
& we dont always get what we want
but what if its not something we want
but something we need

you dont understand what im going through
its not as simple as you think

but how come whenever anyone else is wrong in this world
they still get what they ask for
& even what they dont ask for
how come its that easy for others

how come its so hard for me
to even get someone to listen
or someone to actually read this

this is going nowhere
its useless to me, to you, to any living soul whose heart still exists

but
i need you to know
that this is something i need
and not want